by Gerardo Valerio | May 23, 2019 | Main News
Update May 24 2019: So successfully my friends came through last night (May 23rd 2019) to help defeat Omega-G and ward him off my account. With this, my twitter account has been saved and unlocked. All my tweets are public again and I feel like a new beginning has started with this.
It was so much fun role playing with my twitter friends. This was an experiment on how I can make a “social” game run online without programming involved. It was also a testament to my mutuals if they cared to join my game. What was real here was that I was going to delete my account if no one cared to engage in time. That sense of urgency also helped to make this playthrough much more intense. The responses I made from both @Mariolegend_ & @Gerardolegend accounts were all done in real-time too. It took me 20 to 35 minutes to draw up the scenes of each attack dealt against Omega-G. I was so focused but it was so much fun! I wish I can find a way to reduce the time of each composition and post it as fast as I can. With this in mind, I’m developing the HTML5 RPG for Mariolegend.com in a toolset called Smile Game Builder, in which is a level editor/RPG maker engine that can extend to Unity game engine. Thus It will be a social media game experiment that will play out similar to the first event with a more efficient way of having the scenarios playout to maximize the fun!
You see, I was growing really bored of my account and I noticed that I didn’t have anything to show because game development really takes everything from me, and I don’t have the time I used to when I was better off. Right now I’m trying to solve so many problems, that part of my brain power isn’t focused on the fun stuff much, making it really hard to feel happy or content about my life in general. Thus I feel that a fusion of that and some make believe time with friends will make things better, and it has!!! It was so fun that now I’m going to make it something that we all can do beside playing Smash Bros, since that you require way more focus and timing. With this, we can include Smash Bros as a bonus extra and any other game that includes Miis. It can be played with just logging in Twitter and simply tweeting my account.
Therefore successfully, in which I’m forever grateful about, I got 6 friends to interact immediately the next day I summoned them to play this scenario out. I felt like a kid playing. It was reminiscent to Dungeons and Dragons, but anyone could do it at any time of the day without dice or paper. It seems I choose the right people as all of them were able to engage at night simultaneously. This has a more heighten effect in gameplay and it made it more intense and interesting. Once I’m able to get Smile Game Builder and all my art assets ready for the next event, I will see if I can then create controlled programmed scenes for everyone to play, and up the number of capable players into the fray.
Since I won’t work on Monday, Memorial day, I will be using some of my time to figure out this stuff.
Also to credit, I have Nicole T Marie and Lewmoth original music tracks for the next event since this is my Tribus Fabula project and I have some cool works already in the mix, audio-wise. This means that once conditions are ready, I can stream on twitch with all of us playing in real-time, if it gets to that level of course! 🙂
…. I’ll detail more and update about this in the next coming weeks in a new post so stay tuned!
Hey guys,
So ~ here is the 411:
Story:
Omega-G has captured and sealed off Gerardo into a subconscious mental prison and you, yes you the reader, can help save him! The personification of Depression, anxiety, anger, and self-destruction is the demon Omega-G. How you can help is by sending this special artifact (symbol of ReBirth and Balance) on GerardoLegend twitter handle —-
Either copy “image address” (source) on to your tweet or this address:
“https://giphy.com/stickers/love-power-up-awen-symbol-ZcpG30RbcwZPLuDHpK”
This is an example of a tweet posted by my buddy Tael, as an example on how the game was being played on twitter.
With this, the symbol of Awen, and as many as 6 or more mutuals and or strangers, it can ward off Omega-G from GerardoLegend’s account and prevent it from shutdown.
When countdown reaches 0 (May 26), the account will close by the will of Omega-G. You must prevent such a tragedy from happening.
How did this even happen you ask?
Omega-G was subconsciously summoned by Gerardo in his moments of distress. It is the character of negativism that has been keeped inside for so long, and now it has taken hostage the very being it was born from. It doesn’t care about life. It only feeds from everyone’s sorrows and G’s own. The symbol above is the ticket to push it into a corner, but without friends to help, it is useless. The love of people who care is required for this symbol to work. By saying, “You matter G”, and using the symbol above in a tweet will save Gerardo from oblivion.
The fight won’t end there. It will only ward off the demon and manifest itself independently from Gerardo’s body. The next battle after is defeating it in a smash bros battle ( Level 9 CPU Vs 3) in an online match that will be broadcast on Mariolegend_ twitter account the next Sunday after May 26. Anyone who wishes to fight in this battle are welcomed. Omega-G will then be a Mii fighter at maximum difficulty, so the more skilled fighters, the better!
This also won’t end there as the HTML5 RPG game, Tribus Fabula: Nightmare’s end, will be available on Mariolegend.com later this summer as an episodic series that goes deeper into the lore.
Now that you know, the inspiration in going into this stunt is to symbolize the end of one year and rebirth of a new year for me. Instead of just letting things be as it is, boring, I wanted to spice up my space with a little bit of role playing here. With all the seriousness going on, it has gotten really bad and I really felt what is truly the point of all the things in social media if we can’t even do anything. Is there to interact with each other, but it can be more! It is our escape as well! And we all love video games! I even love Dungeons and Dragons, but I can’t even get to hang out with real folks because we are so busy. So I wanted to do this instead. We can all have fun and use our imaginations! The “power-X Artifact” thing is just a story item that you can use your imagination to empower you in creating your own special abilities.
This mean you can also cast magic on to Omega-G, as in just incantate a spell of your choosing and roll the dice on how effective it is – and post that on Gerardolegend’s twitter feed (or make it up). Use the power of your mind, and let’s have fun!
by Gerardo Valerio | May 3, 2019 | Main News, Personal
…. So now that you’ve seen a deeper degree of my madness, is finally time for another insightful talk.
How you guys doing today?
I hope you guys are well. I am well as April’s end has given me a great resolution to fill me with hope. Previously I have mentioned about how deeply my status was and now I got the good news. I’m Still here. Also that I have communicated enough with all the important channels to get progress done. That means I had a good and very needed talk with my brother as the insights helped to better manage my plans going forward. I also had an upswing in more time at work that will result in having enough to save for the important things, like fixing up the house and construction of my other projects although I’m still trying to find other economic solutions.
Continuing, I didn’t know about the repercussions of me exclaiming out that core immediate feelings inside, but it helped me to cope on it and make things better by writing it on my blog and making the April 6th video. I might have made people uncomfortable as hell, even made 20+ folks unfollow me on twitter, but it’s not about everyone else, it’s about getting out that bad steam out of me regardless if folks may think I’m crazy. It was such a crushing feeling when I didn’t get the job and I needed to say something and post the video as i was afraid I would snap and implode. I had felt so alone and It is my process to talk about it and let it out. This though manifested some real people who have come up to me and made me realize about the posts. It’s only words on the screen I tell myself but it’s deeply more, and I felt trapped not knowing what else to do. By writing it out, expressing it on video, it was something I really needed to cry out, otherwise things would have gotten really bad internally. When I was a child, a teacher gave me an empty booklet made out of construction paper and told me to write my feelings into it. Ever since, it stuck on me, and I continue to do so because it’s like putting these feelings on the shelves and internalizing them would mean a total descent into madness. I do have to apologize for making those who are concerned feel bad about it. I assure to you, I’m okay and things are alright now. I know I’ll have bad days for sure but I see I got people that care. It was just a really real low point at the moment I expressed it. A new video I just posted is up to help ease your worries
… The whole point of it was to let go of that thought – This is an open diary/journal of me, Gerardo, the being that is in this reality. Why hide the truth? I’m being real… … I guess those who don’t understand and are spooked I do recogn why they think and expect of me just plainly losing it. Life is all set with ups and downs, it’s inevitable but with what extremes I’m going through at the moment of writing and videotaping, they are just that, only hard moments that will float away, specifically when I’m battling with myself. This doesn’t mean the storms will ever stop coming, it just coping and finding in myself by accepting that they are just temporary. It just some moments are so extreme, alone, I’m trying to find something to let me understand why I do feel so bad. This is when I drop it in here so that the spotlight can take place and help to remind me of that moment. It’s to let me realize what is happening as subconsciously sometimes it sneaks up and I’m not aware that I’m really that bad until someone tells me. I’m super thankful of the true friends that have sticked with me thick and through, and I’m double appreciative that of new friends entering my life and expressing their concerns. I gotta give special thanks to Tito’s girl for that realization. The last thing in my mind is to make anyone feel bad. I felt that and I told myself I need to fix it.
Accounting to a surprising moment, I stared in shock when I saw the universe truly answer my calls when a friend came in to my work. The way I see the universe deliver the message is through manifestation of repeated and amplified ways to tell me one thing and either warn me or just stuff happens. I witness first hand how blessed I am when my message of despair caught attention to individuals who responded back with love. Even when I felt so sad coming back from work one night, a stranger with a familiar face just walks me home, kinda like a guardian angel. I didn’t say anything about how I felt, but that moment just felt like a guardian angel came and saved me. That stranger only appeared once after.
These things have been happening to me, and it was a feeling like Santa came in and gave me a gift that i didn’t see coming at all. What did I do in my past life to have these things happen? It was just amazing. One thing I realize is true now – what you send out to the universe, it comes back to you, even when you’re not looking. It is just that one has to learn to see everything like glasses that see quantum particles manifesting at the speed of thought. It’s a strange world and I figure that one has to listen to oneself before one commits to sending that signal out. My mind was sending out the wrong things, to a point I almost got hit by a car in multiple occasions.
One example was a new friend, who I always light up when I see her come in the store, who I unexpectedly never have thought she would look in here and connect with my words. I saw her concern as a sign from the heavens. Yeah, corny I know but it’s true. It’s rare when that happens. This is not the only event either, much confirmative moments happened after. For instance, another new friend who I have connected in april, came with groceries to pass on to me that same night. This is not coincidental people, and this is why I see humans as humans. I see in every folk with potential of everything, and I believe more they posses to express compassion over everything else. I have been lucky to see a lot of benevolence from folks. That’s why you never know and must always treat everyone equal with love. It will come back to ya for sure.
That’s why I want to do more and become balanced so that I can too be able to give back and perpetuate out the good. Become better.
Seeing her for the first time after 11 years! And my Movie old school buddy (right) – Avengers Endgame Night
The best thing that happened in April was someone helping me understand what I have said in the past, like mentioning this blog. This is why I write these things out, so if someone gets it and it volleys back to me, I can finally see where I am stumbling and correct myself. I know it isn’t effective either and can scare away folks but I am not perfect and I only do it sublimily as sending out an S.O.S. This is why a superhero movie like Avengers endgame demonstrates the hero’s journey arc and why it is so critical as an element to use as reference of evolving through pain and obstacles that will be useful get to the next level. It’s not easy, and sometimes one will not get it the first try. Also, the movie is really that good. It gets down so deep. The message I got, since it’s subjective and it’s non-spoiler meta, is family. We are all family. That’s what I got from the film and it’s relative to the feeling of unity and how there are amazing people out there.
Furthermore I feel a need of apologizing because i don’t mean to make those people feel anxiety over me. The universe has always tried to reach out with many different signals. I just gotta listen to it and try my best to tune down the noise in my head. If I’m not, I want someone to slap me so I can snap out or just a hug will do. It’s hard though, and that’s why I feel blessed to my amazement that I got good people on my side.
Now moving along, the good news is that I got to see someone who I haven’t seen in so very long. 11 years? The point is I was happy to see that special person again. The meeting made me more grounded and hopeful. She was a catalyst long ago on how I had to wake up from a dream and realize things with myself. It was a start in trying to open up my eyes. She might not understand how important she was to me then, but like how the universe acts in strange ways, she was the herald that made me realize there was more beyond the walls. She made the virtual, real.
Going now into detail about how to physically help myself is that I also realize my internal fight is connected to my diet and lifestyle. I need vitamins and minerals for my brain. Sleep is also important but I’m not doing justice when I need to stick with going to sleep early in when I need to focus on my job. I do have a few other folks helping me with nutrition advice but I have to help myself first so it can be effective. I’ve been putting off eating normally and healthy since my income decreased this month and ever since I started working at the liquor store 9 months ago, just plain bad habits of eating unhealthy things fueled the downward spiral. Not to mention that I didn’t hit the amount I required monetarily, and the result of that I’m pretty much having a hard time but the good news is that my compassionate friends already have helped me survive <3
Continuing, I’m very much am a hard headed fool, and I already cut down so much spending in April that got me really emotional because it’s just generally frustrating. It feels like I’m floating in space with almost no food or power to navigate to my destination. But do you know what? I’m very fortunate to be present today that love me. I got to realize so many spectacular things, watched a fantastic movie, on top of having to see someone very special to me on that same day. Universe saying a lot in just 24 hours in which it has been building for some time now. Then the next day to even add to that with an eye opener second half start of my shift at work. Totally incredible. Pretty much I take the message as “be patient and keep moving, you will see…”. That message has always been repeated so many times, in so many forms, and again my mind blocked it and instead filled it with anxious thoughts that has taken me deeper into despair.
One other thing is, the universe doesn’t act on the ocean of low vibrating darkness quicker than the specks of high vibrating light that fills the void. Itty bitty specks of light fends the darkness away. Now Imagine if that lightwave is amplified, it can shine out the void. The thing is, everything in the universe is balanced out. What I figured is that my fear, the darkness that pulls me down, is of disaster but I have to find a way to overcome it. One of those things is to let life be, and not be bothered by the material momentos. Letting go of things I have no control of, and look on what I really desire to manifest in life. Tell the universe now what I really want and need to unleash the version of myself that I, at heart, want to truly become. Focus that energy so it can become clear, and have patience. The most important part is, have fun while doing all of that.
Google Plus account based from Myspace account
Now going back a bit to explain something in which i find relative to this, is the reason in the past I titled myself as “Lost G” was because the spiraling out mindset always surfaces when I get lost in my own noggin. I try to get out, but the only signals that help pull me from it are people who are nearby me that I feel connected to. I’ve been spoiled by being with my family, and now not being able to be united with them fills me with sorrow. I took it for granted for so long I never thought I would be alone. The reflection of my heart then pulls me back on my feet and I start dancing again. The desire to realize the dream comes back. The dream in being with my family together, showcasing my art to them. A reality now that I feel is just wishful thinking. If anything, family can mean other things and the universe can grant it in essence of that concept. This is when the universe transforms everything to accommodate and form that new reality. It’s hard to change and accept, and even though one wishes for it, I believe you have to take everything with that wish to manifest that new reality. That’s when help is needed to cope with that transformation because it’s gonna be really hard. You have to ex_change, which the ego will fight to find a middle ground for. Attachments will make it harder.
Now moving forward, for the final days of year 37, I’m gonna make it count by setting my creative plans and working with managing my time better. What I desire now is to be able to continue working on game development and get better at storytelling. Since my time is limited with one particular project, Famicom Land S2, I need to hurry up and capture my environment first before construction obstructs my goals for that project.
Anyway, I got lots of stuff to do as you already see and I hope you, the reader, stay with me. It’s gonna be good when everything finally comes together.
Tribus Fabula RPG
But quickly going back to a critical point, the mindset of self-harm for me only manifest when I corner myself in a deep feeling of defeat. That root of me, that I understand now, has to do with attachments. The special conditions why is because I want to protect those momentos. In the past how I dealt with it was to create something significant to remember it by creating an art piece. The first huge shift I had to let go was back in 1998 with Famicom Land. That was created in the premise to remember that time when my environment and state of life was and now no longer exist. The last one was when I moved to Boston from San Francisco. This again is repeating, and my plan is to create something that, artistically, can reflect and mark this time so when the highs do come, I can really appreciate it and feel I earned it and enjoy it.
Thus why now I need to make haste. I wasted too much time being paralyzed with fear and Famicom Land will be my project for the next few weeks. I just need to capture key shots for the video and write the next chapter before construction happens later in the summer that may obstruct this. I know, it’s a last minute thing it feels, but I have been planning for a while about it. It’s just you already know, depression can be a bitch.
So with that said, good things are coming along. It’s going to be hard, but I now see I do have heroes amongst me. The website Mariolegend.com is almost ready, I’m also getting ready my games to post on the site in the arcade section later in the year, as well working on the video section some more. The front page will change once it gets closer to the official launch time. Everything is going into Mariolegend.
Alright amigos, thank you for reading and caring. Catch you guys later.
-g-
