The sum of all fears has shown its face now in this summer session of School.

But before I talk about that, I'm going to jump and talk about my crazy love life. Right now, my heart feels disrupted. I am confused in the love department. One girl like I was expecting, broke my heart. She didn't do it on purpose, is just the reality of life. She needed someone there like a pet to hold her after work, and I wasn't that type of guy. I have my own responsibilities, and I gave enough time for her to take advantage but she never did. Patiently I awaited her call, and as time passed I realized that she wasn't going to. This is exactly why I feel the need to be an asshole and to smack some sense to those who jump in to quickly and assume things are perfect. It's fine but when you mess around with the heart, karma is going to bite a big chunk off of you. Messing with me will only cause pain and angush with whoever does.

Right now I'm tired of proving myself, too tired because I over did it my previous heart. I'll be happy with someone who I can have a good conversation with, and usually I'll be in a good mood if the conversation doesn't have any limitations or rules that prohibits anything that will make me feel akward. I know the same applies to whoever wishes to take on the challenge, so like a hippie that I am I'm open to finding that special someone without borders. I have one life, but my existence is complex like pretty much all humans are. I have one heart, but I have sacrificed many. With every one heart that was given and smashed gives the next version a more complex design as that it is more difficult to hold. Though, once unlocking the over armored shell, my true giving self comes glowing outwards. So ladies, just know that I am human and thanks to women of my past, I am what I am.

Okay! Now after that notice, It's time to talk about school.

I have 5 classes this summer quarter. For the next 10 weeks (first week was last week), I will be extra busy. I will be trying to prioritize my time in the gargatuan scale of homework that I must do to pass my classes. I need this, now that I must focus to achive my ultimate goal! Do you want to know what is my ultimate goal?! Well, pretty much is to get a high paying loving job that can grant me time for my future family. Simple huh? So respect my time whoever is trying to unprofessionally reach me and take my focus. A little message to the noobs who will of course annoy me.

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