The mental stress I'm having is no joke...

It's been a while since I last wrote here in this page of mine.  It's been an awfully long journey since my last post here.  First of my schooling from the beginning of the spring quarter I thought it was going to be fantastic, but then classes started to up the level of assignments that needed to be entered at a higher frequency.  Then in this quarterly type of system on week 7 is when things got horrid in my perception of my goals.  There was this one person who lives 3000 miles away from here who turned my mind away and created an unusual choice for me.

This person is the one who created another question in my journey.  Why am I here?  Why do I persist in this chase?  For what cause am I doing this?  A family of questions fills my mind with doubt and uncertainty.  This is when this person set the question, “will you accept me to be yours?”   I was so confused, because 12 years had elapsed since I knew this person and now she is requesting me.  I ask myself what I should do.   So I follow my heart and agree to be with this one person.  Now, this deal is pending because of my colossal promise to find my way through school and then to reach my goal.  But what is my goal now after she requested me?  This is why I write this message to read back to myself and find my lost path.

-  g -